always.

Friday, October 16, 2009

I will clear up the mess I created

and will try my very best not to disappoint ppl around me!!

Monday, September 07, 2009

Mummy please get well soon

My mum is seriouly ill now
I hope everything will be alright
no matter what, I'll stay by her side
she definetly will get well soon,
so please don't say that if you not around,
I must not cry and must take good care of myself
cause this is not going to happen!!

There are so many things happened to me recently
why is this so? Did I change? Am I no longer the Melinda I used to be?
I really have no idea, I feel so lost all a sudden.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Yeah!

Yeah!!

Finally all UTs finished!!

but i still got project need to work on, damn!

No time to play again!

although is holiday now, but my schedule is full of trainings and working

but of cause I will try to have more times for him! I don't want history to repeat itself again

but things are changing now, I just hope for the best

I wanna change my blogskin

people, any recommendation? I'm so sick of this blogskin

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Guilt all over me

Tears roll down when you started to cry

I know the hurt that we done is more than you can take it

There are so many things that I want to talk to you

but I always don't know how to start

We love you, we really do

I'm really sorry I'm not there when you need somebody by your side

Team without you is not a Team anymore

your words is always a motivation to me since the day I know you

you are really a very strong girl for your age

I really respect you alot, but my action to you did another thing which let you down and hurt you deeply

You were there, when I need people to talk to

you were there, when I need a hug

But when you need people by your side

I am not there for you, not even a single moment

Once again, I didn't appreciate the people around me

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Solution

When there is no trust in a relationship

it will be very difficult for the relationship to continue

no matter how much you love each other

when there is no trust in it, the relationship just won't work

we will start to quarrel almost everyday

I will always feel insecure, even though you tried your very best to make me feel secure again

but the past will just keep on haunting me

it not that I didn't try, but at the end of the day it just come back

cause I will just be too sensitive to everything you do and say

I know both of us already feel very tired of my emotional

I want to know the truth yet I can't handle it well the truth that I get to know

whenever it become like this, we will just start to quarrel again

all that means is neither of us is listening to each other

We have our goals in our life

we can't let this matter to continue anymore

cause it won't do any good to both of us

Trust is not a one day thing

it need time and efforts to build it up again

but we are running out of time and we are getting tired of all these

Maybe we're better off this way

It's better that we break

because both of us know that we can't let this continue anymore

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Pointless

Sometimes is sad to see the people that you care for

find you nagging

Everywords I repeated means well to him

but he will just get irritated after awhile

brought those bitter tea for him cause he is sick

he will just say he really don't like it

and doesn't want to drink

No use for being caring

because it is pointless

rather show it to others

who will appreciate the things I do for them

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

How to move on

I feel so tired and stuck

there is no motivation for me to move on

I don't have enough time for myself

family is giving me problems

I can't really cope with my studies

I am so tired all of a sudden

that I just feel like giving up of everything

What should I do?

Anyone?

lead me please...

Labels: Stuck somewhere


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Friday, October 16, 2009 I will clear up the mess I created and will try my very best not to disappoint ppl around me!! Labels: Embrace it, Learn from it 3:21 PM · Monday, September 07, 2009 Mummy please get well soon My mum is seriouly ill now I hope everything will be alright no matter what, I'll stay by her side she definetly will get well soon, so please don't say that if you not around, I must not cry and must take good care of myself cause this is not going to happen!! There are so many things happened to me recently why is this so? Did I change? Am I no longer the Melinda I used to be? I really have no idea, I feel so lost all a sudden. 3:58 PM · Wednesday, August 26, 2009 Yeah! Yeah!! Finally all UTs finished!! but i still got project need to work on, damn! =( No time to play again! although is holiday now, but my schedule is full of trainings and working but of cause I will try to have more times for him! I don't want history to repeat itself again but things are changing now, I just hope for the best I wanna change my blogskin people, any recommendation? I'm so sick of this blogskin 3:03 PM · Thursday, August 13, 2009 Guilt all over me Tears roll down when you started to cry I know the hurt that we done is more than you can take it There are so many things that I want to talk to you but I always don't know how to start We love you, we really do I'm really sorry I'm not there when you need somebody by your side Team without you is not a Team anymore your words is always a motivation to me since the day I know you you are really a very strong girl for your age I really respect you alot, but my action to you did another thing which let you down and hurt you deeply You were there, when I need people to talk to you were there, when I need a hug But when you need people by your side I am not there for you, not even a single moment Once again, I didn't appreciate the people around me 2:02 PM · Sunday, July 19, 2009 Solution When there is no trust in a relationship it will be very difficult for the relationship to continue no matter how much you love each other when there is no trust in it, the relationship just won't work we will start to quarrel almost everyday I will always feel insecure, even though you tried your very best to make me feel secure again but the past will just keep on haunting me it not that I didn't try, but at the end of the day it just come back cause I will just be too sensitive to everything you do and say I know both of us already feel very tired of my emotional I want to know the truth yet I can't handle it well the truth that I get to know whenever it become like this, we will just start to quarrel again all that means is neither of us is listening to each other We have our goals in our life we can't let this matter to continue anymore cause it won't do any good to both of us Trust is not a one day thing it need time and efforts to build it up again but we are running out of time and we are getting tired of all these Maybe we're better off this way It's better that we break because both of us know that we can't let this continue anymore 1:21 AM · Wednesday, June 24, 2009 Pointless Sometimes is sad to see the people that you care for find you nagging Everywords I repeated means well to him but he will just get irritated after awhile brought those bitter tea for him cause he is sick he will just say he really don't like it and doesn't want to drink No use for being caring because it is pointless rather show it to others who will appreciate the things I do for them 1:59 AM · Wednesday, June 17, 2009 How to move on I feel so tired and stuck there is no motivation for me to move on I don't have enough time for myself family is giving me problems I can't really cope with my studies I am so tired all of a sudden that I just feel like giving up of everything What should I do? Anyone? lead me please... Labels: Stuck somewhere 3:02 AM ·